I'm breaking up the posts today because they're separate thoughts from different days.
Finally got around to keepin' a notebook with me at all times again.
Which may or may not lead to more content here.

Apparently, I'm getting burntout.
So much that my co-workers see it, an' I'm told by all my bosses to take some time off.

I might be inclined to believe them.
Took a powernap at around 6pm Monday an' woke up around 7am the following morning.
Maybe they're all on to something here.

3 jobs + auditions.
Why all the madness?
Because what I plan and what actually happens never seem to match up.
Dumb luck plus other factors, intentional or unforeseen, just have me playing severe catchup.
Hurrah for commission-only jobs.

Pretty sure the parents aren't happy with the way I'm approaching life at the moment.
Spent three hrs gettin' verbally berated by my mother over my career choices the other week.
Not quite making them proud of me yet.
"You should visit on the weekends so you can see your dad."
I imagine he has his own choice lectures lined up for me.

But enough with the de-stressing.
Let's end this post on a positive note.
Thanks to last week's heat, I've noticed I've gotten myself 14 prominent chest hairs.
To think, last year I only had 4.
I feel so manly now.
...should pick up some tights.

Courtesy of the fine people at www.personaldna.com you can now scroll yourself over the following bar an' see my tendencies at age 22.

Benevolent Leader

Fast forward to this week when I decided to try it out again.

Benevolent Director

I like how my masculinity drops after I'm out of a serious relationship.
It's fun seeing how 4 some-odd years and 34 seperate relationships can shape a guy.

Yes.
I did type out 34.
I'd break it down more but I already feel like a manwhore and that's not really the reason why you read this right?

You know it's a filler post when you find yourself copying & pasting various AIM conversations.
Enjoy!

*****: why doesn't he like driving
*****: he never told me why
Howslife14: I don't know
Howslife14: I've never been able to figure it out
Howslife14: all I can say is
Howslife14: he's got no drive
*****: does he like get nervous or what
Howslife14: ...yea, my humor's gettin' weak
Howslife14: I need to join an improv group again
*****: hahaha

CuTe lil bRAt167: first nite
CuTe lil bRAt167: we went to the fox 6 sports bar
CuTe lil bRAt167: and dave and busters
CuTe lil bRAt167: he didn't kiss me
CuTe lil bRAt167: cuz he was nervous
Howslife14: drinks an' competition, keep manpoints
Howslife14: no kiss, loss of manpoints
CuTe lil bRAt167: hahahaha
Howslife14: handshake?
CuTe lil bRAt167: no
CuTe lil bRAt167: barely a hug
Howslife14: boooo
CuTe lil bRAt167: but i broke the ice
CuTe lil bRAt167: hahaha
Howslife14: major loss of manpoints
Howslife14: at least get a handshake in
Howslife14: or if you're Reggie an' would like to see them again, kiss on the hand
CuTe lil bRAt167: HAHAHAHAHA
CuTe lil bRAt167: your such a flirt
CuTe lil bRAt167: hahahaha
Howslife14: how's that flirty?
Howslife14: I look at it as sweet and/or gentlemanly
CuTe lil bRAt167: lol
CuTe lil bRAt167: i look at it
CuTe lil bRAt167: as in
CuTe lil bRAt167: corny
CuTe lil bRAt167: hahahahaha
CuTe lil bRAt167: i'd laugh so hard
CuTe lil bRAt167: hard
CuTe lil bRAt167: hahahaha
Howslife14: it's cuz I'm old
CuTe lil bRAt167: yeah
Howslife14: now I'm gonna be second-guessing myself everytime I end a date now
Howslife14: well, for at least half a sec
Howslife14: eh, good thing I've got a huge penis for an asian dude
CuTe lil bRAt167: dont tell me that
CuTe lil bRAt167: shiet
CuTe lil bRAt167: lol
Howslife14: hahaha
CuTe lil bRAt167: now when i see you
CuTe lil bRAt167: i'm going to envision a big penis
CuTe lil bRAt167: DONT DO THAT TO ME
Howslife14: an' I'll laugh everytime I see you lookin' down
Howslife14: "You got something in your eye"
Howslife14: if I'm not a flirt, then I'm at least trouble
CuTe lil bRAt167: HAHAHAHAHAHA

So yea, I find myself really liking this one woman...
I don't know her name.
Or anything about her for that matter.
I just see her.
Every night.
Constantly distracts me from what I'm doing.
Online.
Damn that smile.
Damn you girl from the University of Phoenix Ad.

...yea.
Definitely need to start doin' improv again.

So I'm either dealing with:
a) massive exhaustion
b) minor depression
-or-
c) hormones because I'm pregnant

Those wacky chemical imbalances...

If you haven't noticed, I'm out of things to write about.

..and random quotes.

Why do I agree to work shifts that start at 4:30am?

Ohhh You!

It's been a minute but it feels like a year
Since you turned away and left me here
Now here's a question I just have to ask
When can I see you again?

I'd like to think that I was past this phase
Where I freeze up when I'm near your face
It's real simple, you know it's true
I just wanna kiss you

I think about you and I smile all day
I'd like to think that you're the same way
My friend's make fun of me cuz they know the truth
I'd really like to kiss you

*musical interlude w/ scat*

Next time I see you can we just stop time?
Enjoy our custom built paradise
Just you and me, me and you
Gosh I wanna kiss you

K-I-S-S-I-N-G
Let's make this happen between you and me.
More than once
More than twice
Times infinity
Yea, that'd be nice
It's really simple, you know it's true
I just wanna kiss you

*whistle melody*
I just wanna kiss you

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Again, VERY rough cut.
Even the title of the song.
Need to play around with the verses more.
Maybe get some rearranging done.

This is pretty much the end result to having another melody stuck in my head an' being tired of not hearing any songs about the process of being in love anymore.
They all tend to focus on quick hook-ups an' broken relationships.
It's been alot of fun working with this song though.
Especially when I get to bring out the ukulele.
I think this can be one where I come out with custom verses each performance.

No stories at the moment.
So due to peer pressure an' guilt for lack of content, I present to you some of my personal writings.

Background:
Friend's completely infatuated with a guy.
Friend is moving across the country at the end of the month.
Guy is pretty much settled in socal.

Add a melody stuck in my head the past couple days, with an attempt at bittersweet and this is what you get.

Figurine

There he is, you see him walking from far far away
You find yourself unable to explain
What you feel inside

Bridge:
He went and stole your heart
From the very start
Left you with a pain that can't be recovered from
I want to be that figurine
(You've been praying everyday)

Chorus:
I want to be that figurine
That sits there by his bed
Can't say a word or expect a thing
But I can always be there for him

On passing occasions through the day
I'll get to see his smile
And I'll find myself content
Watching his peaceful sleep through the night

A month from now you'll find you left him far far away
You find yourself unable to soothe
Those falling tears

Bridge
Chorus x2

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Rough cut for now.
Trying to keep it basic.
Nice slower tempo.
Just need to get some work done on a keyboard 'fore I bring it all together.

Seems a bit stalkerish.
But alot of love songs're like that.
Maybe that's what true love is?
Borderline stalking and/or being able to ignore it.

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Current Wii Fitness Age: 24
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